I know I’m having a damn awful time when I drive to work and then end up sitting in my car thinking “Should I go in, or should I turn around and drive home?”
I’ve felt like that for 5 weeks now. I started relaxing over the Christmas break, but 4 days before I was due to return to work, the insomnia returned, my guts rebelled (you don’t want to know) and I started the usual dread of going to work.
It’s not as if it’s a truly awful situation. It is simply sucking out my soul and my will to live. I am overwhelmed by sadness from my life’s circumstances and I can’t get an even break in my work, with people pressuring me into tasks I can’t get through or absolutely loathe. Now I’m in a worse position than I was a year ago.